...

Sorry if I stare... Its only because i realize how beautiful you are.
Sorry if I stare.... Its only because i realize how selfish you are.

New video up! on YouTube.

I don't have enough time to sleep....

The only way i can rest up for the night shift would be an intense meditation for a few mins that will trick my body in to thinking it slept for a few hours.

Usually I mediate myself to sleep. Easier while laying down if you really want to relax.
Recommended sitting position on a regular daily basis, and don't eat before.

Random Philosophy

Have you ever punched yourself so hard your knuckles hurt?
Have you ever cut your self so hard you bleed?
Have you ever felt so much pain, so much you couldn't feel it anymore?
Have you ever bet more then you were willing to lose?
Have you ever given up on your self?

Its Okay....
We have all been their..

A man made in likeness of men.

A shadow made from nothing.
The brighter the light, the darker the same shadows.
Thou light will give shade light, some dark will remain.
 Darkness made from shadows.
Darkness that has never seen light.
The light will remain, like a lamp left on.

EXCITED!

Waging my tail.
Gamers Lane today with  Samus, Overman, and Nox.
Kingsville TX
Pizza and soda...mmm and oven baked fries

Going to Bed

Returned home at 6AM
Eat some breakfast,
Showered.
A/C set to 70
The cold puts me to sleep faster,


My hand is broken i need to wrap it before i go to bed.
Don't really wanna go to the doctor thou.
Its healing okay..

Good news ninjas

  My mommy whom is very special to me and my brothers, took me to the bank on my 15min break to get Subway, I bought a Big Philly Cheese Steak Sub. It was yummy.

On a side note,
I want you guys to know. I'm not selfish i would never say something i don't mean,

I just say whats on my mind and i don't care if you were the most famous person in the world.

I know Gods real and you will never blind me, i know YOU more then you know yourself, deep down thats why you cry, because your trying to lie to yourself. I'm not going to lie to myself, Don't get me wrong,
I can empathize, MORE THEN YOU'LL EVER KNOW....

LOVE IS GOD, AND GOD IS LOVE.
There is no God their is LOVE.
The wise know God doesn't live to control you.
Remember love doesn't judge.

So GOD will love you no matter what...
So why do you pull away, I wouldn't ever give up on you, So thats why I get angry! because you give up on yourself. I won't give up on you, I LOVE YOU!

For those that are evil, Don't you cherish anyone?

Its pay day!

I'm excited  ^-^
I get really hungry on days like this.
I have to work all day.
So i'll be day dreaming of a Chinese buffet, until work ends.
Sad part is their closed at 10pm.
I kinda feel like eating Wing Stop too.... mmm
I wish their was more restaurants in Kingsville.

She made me stop listening to music

>:(   If shes in a bad mood it doesn't mean i have to be.

Just got home

About to sing my heart out, i love to sing lols, While my baby falls asleep.

Spicy mc chicken

mmm, yum

I need to say something anything.

I feel like i'm letting you down, you showed me the way.... and i know now... ?
It pains me... you showed me something real, I wish with all my soul, people will see even a tiny glimpse of what you showed me, it hurt me to see you suffering because of your children, We like to rebel. We were made in your likeness.
But at the sametime. I feel like you deserved it, we all do...
I understand...
Like a mother who worries about her children, when they leave home. She would sacrifice herself for her children to save them, You worried about us, but you sacrificed yourself for us... So you wouldn't have to worry anymore, because we would be Saved, and thank you for sowing us together again, AS ONE FAMILY.


And together we will! Make it to the other side...

Awake...

Siting at my computer, my girl friend is sleeping.
I like hearing her soft snores.
I completely adore her. shes real...
I won't say it to her, i don't want to sound desperate.
Maybe its because i feel like it would give her to much power in our relationship.
Ha!, i know i shouldn't think like that, but i'm human, so i search for the understanding of our nature, even if it takes more mistakes to understand. I'm real...
Mistakes are lessons, but sometimes its better to learn from others mistakes then to make them ourselves.
I'm tired of making the same mistakes i'm tired of not telling people how i feel.
I'm tired of my box being empty.
I'm tired of people leaving your box empty...

Dinner with the future wife.

Gaze

I'll be watching, like a guardian angel.

hungry

I don't feel hungry, i feel sick in my stomach.
When i feel like this.
 I need to exercise.

On my computer

My room is calm and quite.
Cleaned yesterday, I dusted too ha ha yeah i never do that, but i did it for her.
My computer fan is vibrating, its humming to me...or is it mocking me?... ha  i kidd

Eating pizza

Left overs from earlier today.
Works okay tonight i guess, my eyes feel heavy.
I feel like sleeping and never waking up. The pleasant calm, would it really be so bad.
Infinite rest...

Night shift

I wish i could have slept more.
See ya at lunch

I haven't eaten today, i don't feel like eating.

Putting another you-tube video together.
I may post it later today. If not? soon.

Crazy day today

Everything is just so unreal. My emotions are numb. It's so hard for me to be graceful while evil runs free with selfish needs. I wonder if people see it...

Really, i don't know? It seems like everyone just stopped caring or they really never cared.

I'm like a hermit. My girl friend is not, ha ha ha..... My girl friend wouldn't be laughing... So you better watch yourself, she has mighty tiny fist. I love her very much, but that scares me because every time i give my true honest self to people they realize... Oh wait hes to honest...

I guess people like being lied to.

Pity thou so many people pretending rather then being.

Leaving choices up to chance.

Choices are meant to be made, thats why we have them.

This is my happy place where a normal man can really speak his mind and like an adult confront the real issues and battle his inner demons.

I'm bored, my life lacks luster, and I have no one to talk to. So to the unlucky listener that might stumble in these VOLTS of useful or useless ranting.

Stay quite and just listen, this is my journal.

Welcome

On youtube

Listening to some brand new.

Fire burning in center of room.

Syire begins to make camp.

Syire entered room.

Door opens